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raynestorm0105- April 20th, 2:11
It was dark when she rose ,quietly moving from where she was,taking a seat at her desk.Turning on the lamp in the corner with a soft click,not wanting to awake her love.She grabs her notebook carefully writing what very well may be the last lines she will ever write.
"I love you,but I have to do this.Someone has to be their voice.I will call,but if something were to happen..."
Her tears began to flow,smudging the ink slightly.She indulged for a moment before finding her strength again.
"...you know who did it.Please take care of little man and let him know that momma loves him now and forever.Know that I will always love you now and forever too"
signing the letter and placing it in an envelope on the desk where it would be seen,she crept from the room.
With a last look back ,as she wiped the new swell of tears from her eyes,she went out the door and into the night,beginning a search for retribution and justice.
- What happened?
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- raynestorm0105
- March 25th, 17:08
creative
The dreams began again.
"Copyright 2009 by Letha Connor"
It had been a long time since one had surfaced, it had been even longer since one had been so vivid . She awoke unsure of what to do or how to handle what she had seen, but not doubting the things she saw.
The hurt ,the pain, the odd sensation of peace she felt at seeing them again. It had been awhile since the murders that took her family from her.Kota,nikki and the baby truly were her family in all ways. An adopted family but hers none the less. The dream disturbed her to no end. Feeling the pain of the hits marring her skin, her bones being snapped as if they were twigs. The natural instinct to curl up and protect the baby from all of it ,making the pain only that much more accute.She felt every sensation that Kota felt, if she didn’t already sleep alone ,the thrashing and screaming she did while in the hold of that dream would have scared off any partner she did have.
Then all of it stopped.
She was still in the night, a odd peacefulness gripped her, then the heat began. The flames licked at her pale skin as if they were looking for kindling to grasp a hold of. She screamed out in a desperate attempt for help as the fire consumed her body ,raging over the soft skin, marring the tender flesh leaving trails of destruction in its path. Some parts of her body seemed to burn brighter and more painfully then others, the flames seeming to eat through the skin, the muscle and began to burn straight onto her bones. She tried to run, her efforts futile in attempt as she was restrained by something. Her arms held above her as if tied to the bed she was on, the flames engulfing her completely, then the blackness consumed her.
The peace then came again. It was so dark and cold now, she was still sore and the acrid smell of burnt flesh and hair was still strong in the atmosphere surrounding her, but she could move now. Her once restrained arms free as she swung them down from their place above her head and placed them on her sides. Wincing as she moved, her ribs clearly broken, a smile crossed her lips as she thought, I survived. She rose to go check on Nikki and immediately fell to the floor. Her leg was broken as well. Her pain was moderate as she realized she would just have to yell for nikki to come to her. Her voice came out as a slight whoosh of air as she tried to yell, her windpipe had been crushed as well. Her hands instinctively reached down to her stomach, running protectively over the bulge that was once there, that was now gone. Tears began to stream down her face as her mind wondered what the hell exactly happened, why he did this to her, and where were the kids. Then she thought of Natalie ,a thought that didn’t get fully formed when nikki walked towards her from the door.
Her small body looking even more fragile then the tiny doll she held in her arms. She smiled at Kota ,looking much older then her 4 years should allow, and softly said” Hi mommy! I took care of Dom while you were taking a nap” She looked lovingly at nikki as she moved closer ,the doll being held by her brought closer, only to realize it was in fact her baby and not a doll at all. She took the tiny baby into her arms, holding him closely ,his scent that of smoke and blood. As she looked closely at his face, horror hit her as she realized his small body was marred thoroughly by scars from what appeared to be burns.
Nikki,almost as if she knew what was going through her head,wispered to her” It wasn’t pretty mommy, it was hot and dark. I didn’t like the way you cried or screamed, but he promised me it was helping you.....then he left me here by myself. I didn’t like the man who kept pushing on my chest, it hurt, and I wanted him to stop but he wouldn’t went for a ride and then I was back home. With you and you were sleeping. Dom was on the bed next to you so I took him and played with him while you napped mommy, I was a big girl. I tried to go to Natties like u told me to when something was wrong but I couldn’t mommy,Im sorry. He wouldn’t let me, he wouldn’t let me go so I could. I thought he liked nattie mommie,I thought he was friends with her because of bubby, but he still wouldn’t let me go there.Im sorry mommy I tried." Reaching out to her, she caressed the dark hair of her beautiful little girl. Instantly a peace washing over her.” Can I still go to Nattie's mom? Maybe she can help us",nikki said in her quiet voice.
Kota only nodded as her thoughts changed, her reality forever altered.
She was dead.
- First day
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- raynestorm0105
- February 4th, 2007
thoughtful
It was warm and humid in the school."Why can't they just get a better air conditioner in here"she thought as she walked to the locker room."Its 150 degrees in the school so naturally they give me 1st period gym"she complained to herself.Walking into the locker room to change she ran into the new girl she met at orientation."Hey!"said the girl.She responds with "hi"The girl laughed ,"You dont remember me do you? I'm Dakota,we met at orientation."She laughed and said"I remembered you but not your name "They chatted as they dressed and walked to class.
Walking into the gym ,she saw other people in their class that she knew,some she grew up with."Line up over here when I call your name"the teacher shouted."Dakota Aiores"the teacher began."Natalie Brian"was the next name the teacher called.She smiled as she walked towards her new found friend ,realizing they would be close enough to talk during class."Dominick Charles"the teacher called out.Nattie smiled again,looked over at Dakota and said,"Ive known him for a few years,he's cool.Dom walked over to Natalie and said ,"You gonna give me an intro to your friend or what?"She said ,"I guess,Kota this is Dom.Dom this is Kota.There intro done you happy now?"While laughing Dom replied,"Yea thanks"As class began she thought,"Maybe this year wont be all that bad after all."
"Copyright 2007 by Letha Connor"
- The Fire
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- raynestorm0105
- February 2nd, 2007
calm
The dreams were back....
They were so clear ,so precise.She had to tell Dakota about them.To warn her.They had been happening now for almost a month off and on ,but for the last week very steadily.She laid back down making the decision to tell Kota in the morning when she came over.
That morning as usual,Kota was at her door with Nikki her daughter.They sat down at the table after she gave Nikki something to snack on and told her to go play with her brother upstairs."Kota",she said,"I've been having dreams again" Kota ,knowing what this meant and having seen first hand the results of the dreams she has,asked"Is the baby ok?"
"He's fine",she replied."It's Nikki I'm worried about" "What do you mean? " ,asked Kota."In the dreams she's alone,scared,hot and having a problem breathing.I don't see you anywhere in them ,only her.It scares me",she said."Kota,please keep her near you at all times."
"I will.Nikki is my life ,you know that.If you ,of all people ,feel she's in danger she isn't getting away from me ."
Dakota and Nikki stayed for a little while longer ,then went home to their apartment a few apartments away.Later that night Kota and Nikki came back over so Nikki could play with her brother some more while Kota planned her party the following day.They spent a few hours going over the final details and agreeing for her to come over the next morning to help prepare things at Kota's house for the party.
She woke the next morning with a start.There was someone pounding on her door.She got up to see who it was.Opening the door slightly,she saw another neighbor of hers in hysterics."You have to get over there now!!!"The neighbor stated."Where?Whats going on?"She asked."To Dakota's place.They just pulled Nikki from the apartment but cant find Dakota anywhere"The neighbor replied.
Grabbing her son,placing him in his stroller,she ran over to Kota's apartment .Sensing something was terribly wrong the closer she got she turned the corner to see the trucks in front of it,the hoses being led into the apartment,and the flames still licking at the windows.Someone in the crowd told the fire men who she was and one of them came and talked to her."What happened?" she asked."We aren't sure yet ma'am."The fireman responded."Where is Nikki?"She asked.He replied,"Ma'am ,when we got here we found her unconscious and not breathing.She was sent to the hospital." As he finished the sentence ,his radio flared up "The child was DOA.Unable to revive her despite the efforts of the doctors.She has died".When she heard that she broke down ,unbelievably ,uncontrollably crying.The fire chief then walked over to her and the fireman who was talking to her."We understand you had a relationship with Dakota."The fire chief stated."Yes sir" she replied.The fire chief looked down,then looked back up to her eyes,"I'm sorry ma'am.We found Dakota .She's dead."he said."But how ?Why?She can't be! I told her don't leave Nikki at all.Why weren't they together????"She screamed in despair."Nikki was in Dakota's bedroom with a gate up .We should be thankful for that."The fire chief said."Why?"She asked."If that wouldn't have been there then Nikki could have been hurt even more so.Nikki's death was an accident."He said."What?I'm not understanding"She stated, clearly distraught.He replied,"Ma'am ,Dakota was murdered.She wasn't caught in the fire.She was the fire."
"Copyright 2007 by Letha Connor"
- Her turning point.
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- raynestorm0105
- February 1st, 2007
- contemplative
Seeking shelter from the storm ,she sat in that pavilion deep in thought."how did I end up here"she asked herself.In reflection she realized it was all her fault.She made those choices.She made the mistakes.Storms had always made her think ......Today's being no different.
Almost 2 years ago she got her results.She was pregnant and only 15."How could I let this happen" she thought.Her father , knowing her stance on abortion,gave her 2 choices once he found out.Then took away one of the choices for her.3 weeks later she was in the doctors office ,undressing ,in tears.They sedated her then placed her under.She awoke a few hours later feeling what was missing in her.It felt cold,empty,and alone.For her it was change that wasn't wanted.Something in her died with her child that day.
She went back to her home,began falling back into her daily routines.It lasted for maybe 3 months then she snapped.She ran.As fast as she could ,away from the home she had always known giving up everything in the process.
Now here she was......
17,spending most of her time on the streets,running around wild,stopping only once it was so late the rest of her friends had to be in their homes,thus forcing her to return to where she was currently staying ,her sister's house.But not tonight.Tonight was different.Tonight she was sitting at the pavilion where she slept during her time on the streets after running away,deep in thought.
Finding her answers in the rain as it slowed,she knew how to handle it this time.She was pregnant and this time she is keeping it,no matter what.
"Copyright 2007 by Letha Connor"
- the bathroom
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- raynestorm0105
- January 30th, 2007
morose
As she walked in a daze,she couldn't believe he just did that.Down the hall and to the left ,into the bathroom, her sanctuary.She sat there alone ,crying ,begging for help,knowing none would come.Her inner cynic kicking in with thoughts of "this is what love is and how you show it".He came to the bathroom to check on her and make sure she was ok.To hug her and kiss her ,making her feel safe again...If only in his mind.They went to bed a little while later.He made love to her not as if she wanted to but she knew better then to say no .
4AM - She awoke to a baby crying ,it was time for a diaper and a bottle.She changed him and made his bottle,fed him and then laid him back down.Back into the bathroom she went for a few moments of peace.In the quite solitude she realized something was wrong.Looking down and seeing that her legs are covered in blood.Fully comprehending what this meant,she went into the bedroom waking him gently telling him what is happening.
No words of comfort,no hugs and love,no sympathy....Just a simple glare followed by a simple sentence......."I told you I don't want a daughter and now shes gone......"
"Copyright 2007 by Letha Connor"
- The child
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- raynestorm0105
- October 21st, 2006
- thoughtful
That morning different from all others,She awoke with her normal routine.It was Wensday so she showered and dressed ,prepared for school....Another normal ,average day in 7th grade.At least it was from the outside to everone else anyway.....
That morning when getting dressed she chose her clothes carefully knowing what was to come in the middle of the day.Everything had to be perfect for this was the begining ...the begining of the end.
When she told him that previous weekend about her dream and how it was reality she got shunned.ignored and laughed at.But she knew in her heart how true it was and for once she hoped to be wrong.Tho it was a futile hope and she knew it.
There she sat in the middle of class talking to Delaney telling her all about it.....The dream ,the vividness of it ,the details in which it obtained,When the call came.She was told to go to the office her uncle was picking her up early.She went with a heavy heart knowing it was time.knowing she was right.
She got to the office and then in the car heading back to the house where they were to meet her aunt and grandma.They then drove to the hospital to be met by her father who was standing out front.With tears in his eyes her grabbed her hugged her tight and said "I'm so sorry .I wish I would have listened ....You were right."She hugged him unable to speak for fear of losing the control she showed, the strength she upheld.
She walked into the elevator,got off on the floor ,and walked down the corridor into the room.She was already gone being kept alive by machines long enough for her family to say goodbye.The kids one by one showed up taking turns saying goodbye and breaking down.The youngest being the only one prepared and being able to hold on to control having known this would happen today.
On January 6th she became a motherless child.Alone and lonely and in alot of pain.All at 11 Years old.
"Copyright 2007 by Letha Connor"
- past lives.....
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- raynestorm0105
- October 20th, 2006
blah
She laid there curled up, crying ,wondering, reliveing what just happened.He took her trust and her care and threw them aside for his own gain.He hurt her.The smacks,the kicks,the punches.....they were nothing that wouldn't heal in time.It's the words he said they carved deep into her soul to leave long lasting burning scars.permanant deep and unhealing.The act itself ingrained in her psyche forever harming her in ways he knew it would.She wanted to get up,scream at him ,hit him the way he did her tho it would be a joke to him and more harm to her.....so instead she laid there curled up,crying,and wondering why....Why could this man who says I love you to her grab her, hold her down and not accept no for an answer....
"Copyright 2007 by Letha Connor"
